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feeling panicky and paranoid and generally frightened and insecure. Not sure why. Don't like it. Want to hide. Can't. nowhere to hide. Things I must do. Must take care of Aubrey. Let her run around in the sprinkler and get her ready for her tball game tonight and get dinner ready and get me clean and ready to go and all sorts of crap like that. BUt I don't want to, i want to hide in a hole. Anxious, panicky, paranoid, easily startled and frightened, all of that is me right now. And I don't know why. *curls up in a hold to cry and scream until her world rights itself*

Will someone PLEASE stop this rollercoaster????