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[zeldajean]

i came to a major personal revelation over the past week that i do not like at all. right now that's all i'm sharing, but i'm not in a good headspace over this right now. there's also nothing i can do about this on my own, and at this time it is not feasible for me to see a professional. So i must continue to cope, although since i didnt realize i'd been coping i don't actively have coping mechanisms in place and i dont think that i'll be able to reflexively do that just yet. but i don't like what i discovered.